Tuesday, March 24, 2015

A Miraculous Week

And yes, I have been working in a small place where Chinese burgers are famous for. I would not say that it has been an awesome smooth sailing five months. But through the five months of living in solitude here; away from friends and family that truly have I learn to be dependent on God.

Other than remembering this place as the place where I see first hand how God healed someone through me, I've seen myself learning so many things that would other wise be impossible if I am still back home.

But just recently I flew back to my hometown for an interview, with hopes soaring high; from parents and myself, I went without much of preparation on the technical aspect of the job. So in short? Interviewers thought that I wasted their time and that I felt that I've wasted a golden opportunity too. If there's such a thing called stoning myself, I would certainly do it . And that was my thought at that time.

But however, I felt super peaceful, that I would one day go back to my hometown, where my heart and all the other good things are,  despite what a crazy day it was . And so days went by without any news or replies, and the opportunity to go back seemed so bleak. That was until my dad reminded me that he has this friend that owns a company and that he has been looking for engineers.

To cut it short, my dad sent my academic transcript which was not near to being impressive at all. It was just slightly above average. Despite that, I took my chances.Days went by again, my Gmail notification range. Title of the email : "Letter of employment" . Upon reading the offer letter, my mind was blown to bits. Not due to the remuneration packages or what so ever, but the fact that I got a full time job without a resume and an interview. One would argue that its cause the owner knows my dad, but I call it divine blessing.

But there was a catch, just days before I got the offer letter, I was asked if I am keen to join a mission's trip to Vietnam. And initially I gave a tentative yes as things were not as settled; so many uncertainties. But upon getting the offer the letter, we prayed that if the employer is okay with me having a leave application in advance, be it annual leave or unpaid leave, I'll take it as a yes from God to the job.

So there I was anxiously waiting during the weekends, the verdict ? Reply was: " Dear Alvin, the management is okay with the leave application in advance. " . I went blank and dumbfounded. In my heart I went : "Wow, God, Amazing is an understatement to describe You.". And so it was a miraculous week, with now being Tuesday only !

To those that may seem lost, whether you're deciding which course to take in your university or college, or which job offer to take. Just surrender to God, and look out for the peace that He will place into your hearts for the decisions that He wants to take on.  For if His children asks, would He give a stone for a loaf of bread ? Or a snake for a fish ? Definitely a big no and realize that if we sinners know how to give good gifts, God for sure will be  the one will give generously good gifts to those who asks. [Matthew 7:9-11]

Be blessed ! Who ever you are :)

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Blowing off the digital dust

It has since been a few years since the last time I wrote something. So you would expect me to do a whole lot of self reflection ? And sure I did, especially you're in a place with scumbag drivers all around, bearing in mind that at the rate of few times per day, I nearly meet Jesus earlier that scheduled !

And so I'm here done with my degree, being all optimistic about landing myself a job, I hit road blocks after road blocks in countless interviews.

So I prayed jokingly : " God, if there are no mocking to my dreams , no mocking to my intellect just due to slightly above average results, and that I have peace about it,  I'll take it as a yes .. and voila.. here I am in erm MIRI *sarcasm intended*. LOL.

Initially I questioned my very decision of coming to this seemingly God forsaken town, where there are 10 pickup trucks out of 3 cars on the road, where inconsiderate drivers roam. And true enough, many questioned my sanity of coming into a lesser town compared to my hometown. For quite awhile I was caught in the limbo of not knowing what am I here for.

But weeks upon arriving here, I went to this prayer meeting one day, on a Wednesday evening, where I was the only young working adult. To top that up? They prayed in Mandarin, then I was like, Okay God, I'll pray to you in English ; being so accustomed to that. Issues were raised as prayer points and so we went on into forming groups to pray.

So there was this old lady with post surgery pain, whining about how painful it was in whatever posture she has; sitting, lying down , standing. PAIN EVERYDAY ALL DAY. Guess what ? I felt the prompting to pray for her. I did. I prayed and on the Friday that very same week. She gave a text to say that she has been able to sleep soundly ever since; nor painkillers or sleeplessness at night.

My lessons for that day ?  Where discomfort lies there lies a potential for growth in whatever sense possible. And that God provides the healing power, we just provide the willingness and the guts to pray for people; to be a channel so to speak. And that is our part. Full stop. And when you rely on Him solely, He blow your mind ( in a good way) the love He has for you by including you in things like these.

What is it like to be loved by God ? Ten thousand love songs sung to you, of how awesome and wonderfully you were made, squeezed into a single instance that would go on for eternity. His love is wanting to die for your sins over and over, but since He sent His perfect Son, once is all it takes, once is enough to clear off the eternity of condemnation. Still can't fathom His love for you ? If you're only one in this world, He would still die for your sins. Be blessed, whoever you are :)

Thursday, January 3, 2013

The limping warrior

Half my life had I been in this fight,
 It is the kingdom of darkness that I fight,
 with Your might that I will smite,
So hard that the devil starts to hide.

With Your prayer as my shield,
Your grace and mercy I will yield,
Sorry for feeling inadequate,
For the fact is that whatever You had done, are doing and will be doing is more than adequate.

Though the fiery missiles may seem relentless and infinite,
But the strength and grace You had given beyond infinite,
Death of any might not save as many,
Oh Jesus, none but You that had saved that many.

Limping or not, I will still serve,
For it is not the perfect that can serve,
But rather, You took away my garments that are dirty,
And cover me over Your cloak of glory.

Into Your hands I commit again,
That my spirit, body and soul will have the gain.
The gain of food that lasts even when the body decays,
Spiritual food that can shine forth a light upon my path throughout my days.

With the price that we perceived free,
Which costed You so dearly,
That You had won me,
And You had broken every chain with love and mercy.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Wish for another wish

If I had a wish, I would ask for three more. First wish so that mankind would not be selfish, second is to wish that people will not get jealous towards each other, a final wish that in case the two wishes in front does not get fulfilled, that mankind will accept Jesus as their personal saviour, willingly and willfully converted and discipled upon, so that the first two wishes would also be fulfilled simultaneously

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Cry for homeland

Lord, the injustice, unrighteousness and the unfairness has struck upon your servants. We are sorry that in times we get complacent. But Lord, for if you are silent, we might as well give up. But I know that You have been there, You will never leave us nor forsake us, just uphold what is righteous, just and fair oh Lord of Heaven's Army !

I pray for :

1. God fearing leaders who fear the One True God

2. Corrupt acts to be stopped right now

3. Leaders who will be just, fair and righteous

4. Leaders who are full of godly wisdom and intelligent

5.That giving thanks would be our focus instead of complaints

6. Forgiveness of citizens towards leaders who trespassed them

7. Breaking of curses and grudges held against this land of Malaysia for its government

8. Spiritual revival instead of judgment on this land with ungrateful, complacent people

Thursday, October 4, 2012

The parable of the barrel and the oil

I was worshiping last Saturday and Wilson asked if there's someone wanted to share, I chickened out and forgotten about it, and it came back together with an "expansion pack " just last night. And so, I shared.

I had this thought of this barrel/container filled with black stuffs. Next, it was a flow of water flowing constantly into the barrel. It then struck me, the water represents God's influence in our lives, and the "oil" refers to the dirty, tainted and the hidden dark side of us. In this analogy, the oil, sooner or later, when we have God's influence, will have to be displaced off by the water that is flowing in. The same principle applies when you have a cup of muddy water and you allow clean water to freely flow into the cup of muddy water, and the muddy water will eventually be displaced off.

We actually hold the key to the rate of flow of the water into the barrel so as to displace off the oil in our lives, and this rate of flow could be increased by spending more time with God via worship and quiet time and praying etc. As we seek Him through these methods, the barrel tends to be filled up more quickly, which will eventually displace off the oil.

But it dawned to me that, in often times, it is when we are broken and come as we are to God, the most amazing transformations occurs. Basically, God can work better on us when we are humble, broken and "mold-able", just like clay that is not dried up. And so, in relation to the barrel and the oil, it is when the barrel is punctured with a hole (we being broken), that our lives experience change in a faster, if not instantaneous manner because as the barrel (our lives; us) is being punctured with holes(us being broken), the oil (dirt and impurities in our lives) then tends to flow quickly out of the barrel (our lives). And with the remaining dirt sticking on the walls inside the barrel, we have the water(God's influence; love of God etc.) flowing into the barrel to clean it.

After the cleaning, so what happens? Well, in a logical context, one would use a plug and plug the hole to prevent the water from flowing out. The plug here, refers to the word of God. As it is mentioned in Luke 11:24-26, it basically says that a house that is swept and  in order will be invaded again by the demon that was commanded out of a house (person)  together with seven spirits more evil than itself. And here it means that when the barrel is clean of oil (impurities, sins in our lives) , we are to fill it with clean water (things of God ) into the barrel constantly and by enforcing our plugs (word of God) on that hole.

As the hole on the barrel also refers to the vulnerable spots that we had confessed and repented to God before, all the more that the hole should be "plugged " by the word of God. With that, the blessings of God shall not leak out from your life.

Sunday, August 19, 2012

The Road Not Taken

Oh Lord, may Your wisdom be upon me..and may You answer my prayers of whether to choose someone of whom I enjoy company with or someone who is deeply rooted in Your words..May Your will be done as I give thanks for the free will You had given me so I may choose my path instead of binding me by force and autocracy ..Lord may you intervene and I pray that with prayer and petition I will seek Your face and let not the smoke of desperation blind my eyes..In Jesus' name, Amen